Throwback year 2024

 

Grammie has left us this year 2024... was with her at her final moments... Hope & Oliver was there with mike to send her off few hours before she breath her last.. 

she will definately be missed. it's has been almsot 2 years since she left.. i haven't been back to ipoh and stayed int he mewah flat since she left us. if not mistaken, i've only been back only once to fetch in-laws back to kl (thats whn mrs ang - mike's yeeku) left us. 

it's all memories now.. will update more with pictures in days to come.

today is the start of 40 days fast and prayer for year 2026. 

we really need to walk in humility.

updates for 2026

 Time flies. it's already 30th June 2026. Half a year is gone.  next year i'll be 50 yrs. Mom was down last wkn to celebrate aunty suan phaiks 80 yrs old birthday. can see mom is getting old. when we were haveing the night prayer with the kids, she' took out her dentures and tats when her age really showed. need to mend the relationship with her. Wondering whats God's plans for us.  

There's so much to talk about since the last time i wrote -  yet dun feel like remembering the unhappy days.  

God is good and it is HIM who sustains us. He's still teaching me about trust and leaning on Him for strength for it is SO REAL that we can't do anythg on our own. Still remember why i started this blog - its to help me release the bottled up feelings somewhere - so that i 'll be able to move and breath. 

I am really blessed to have a loving hubby and 2 wonderful kids - even tho there are times when life is so tired and frustrating, but knowing they are there is what matters. will need to keep on living and giving them the best there is. God gave us so much... thats the least we can do - to share His blessings with our family + friends. 

Fathers Day Celebration in church

Went to celebrate Hope's 10 year old birthday 

I have been watching a lot of C-dramas lately.. hahah.. kena brainwashed. there are days whn i really missed dad & grammie... missed being pampered.. missed being the little girl. Bro Jo is with a new family now.. He's not young too. Everybody is ageing - sis Mary is not too good health wise - so she can't really travel to Malaysia anymore.

~With aunty mama + family~

On my christian walk, i'm serving in SIBKL's children ministry.. am glad both the kids are serving there as well. Pray they will grow up to love God and have a personal encounter with Him. May they grow up knowing & loving Him dearly.  We are attending a family cell, and Mike is quite involved. We are  cores in the cell, and with the "huge" attendance (including the kiddos) most probably will need to multiply soon. my prayer fro mike to attend SIB has been answered. at least now we can go to the same church + cell and able to serve together. God truly answer prayers - it's just a matter of time. According to His timing and not ours.   We are truly living in  God's grace each day as He grants us healthy bodies, bodies, nutritious food and safe shelter to stay. 

With this, I should be grateful and not complaint. 

Lord, please help me to understand your heartbeat and not be selfish for truly You will sustain us each day and whatever circumstances that we face, You will carry us through. 

the H O S P I T A L S visits to date

2018 oct so mum had a brain tumor - and ti's safely removed... she's suppose to come and help jaga the kiddos while mike goes on a business trip to germany... and while mike is on the plane.. she is hospitalized for brain tumor.. hahaha.. imagine.. mike boards the plane  with a MIL healthily at home with the kids. 

got off the plane in Germany with messages of MIL hospitalized with brain tumor.. he's so shocked. 

shes suppose to take care of this 2 cuties.. 

ended up in hospital - haiz. (pic taken after surgery)

2019 - olly got hospitalized for respiratory issues... and dischrage... 1 week later, kena admit again for HFMD.. haiz... this round more suffering. invlioved the inlaws and whole family taking care of him. and then.. after tat, Hope kena haiz. so this round, mommy needs to go and stay with her at 5star hosp cos mommy aso got it. it's prior to our china trip!! ish.. so worried can't travel due to tat. (another post for that). so it's kinda crazy. 

poor fella... needs to get use to the inhaler. 

fast fwd 2 yrs cost 2020 is the LOCKDOWN year.

2021 - diagnose with bladder cancer sumwhr in may after goin thru various test to identify the reason for blood in urine. and so the treatment starts.... all the biospya and the admisions to the hospitals  goin in and out. so finally in oct, we get a clean record!! woot! God is good... now only need to follow up to ensure no recurrence. Bladder cancer is cleared. Thankiu Jesus. 

updates in a cafe

we are now a family of 4..  papa, mama , Hope & Olly boy. Olly boy is born on April 27, 2018. it's a really eye opener as we were not expecting him to be born till 48 hours later (as the doc said) but guess sumtimes the docs could be wrong too..

when olly is still a blur sotong

So much has happened from then till now.

Olly's baby dedication service in SIBKL. Hope was sleeping too 

Olly was admitted to hospital SB for breathing issues. Hope had cough and kinda spread to him. Poor boy. 1st month of his life and kena admit on tubes. was heart breaking, everytime he cries, can't bear it.
we went for our 1st family - flying trip to Langkawi end of 2018.

taken in the swampy grounds of Langkawi

with grandma in frasers

and various staycations. 

taken in Seremban staycation

God is really good and we are truely blessed. Wish that the kids can grow up in Him - in the right way. Pray that God will gif us the wisdom to nurture and bring the kids (&family) closer to Him... We definately can't do this by ourselves.

Still missing daddy... wish tat he's around to play with the kiddos.. Hope & olly is truly missing out another grandpa in their lives.

Grandma is now admitted to a nursing home after her fall mid of this year. and mom had a tumor removed from her brain in Nov'19. it's strange how God works... only He knows our limits.

morning exercise at lake gardens

#siblingslove

with ah tai - 100 years apart!

cable car in langkawi

olly 1st fever

#akuanakmalaysia

am planning to send the kiddos to Ipoh for their studies.. still in planning. However it's all up to God. He's the ultimate planner. Plan to sell off armanee (so many memories there - deifnately gonna miss it) and get a smaller unit + a landed property in Ipoh. well... we will see how it goes.
Till the next update.. some pics for memories.

#2 is on the way...

it's been quite some time since last post... Hope is now 1yr 8 mths... she's adorable and really God sent. bringing Hope as her name. Mike has gotten a job and income seems more stable.  below are some pics that we took in redang (office trip in Aug'17)

enjoying her bus ride

 mesmerized in the bus

in the restuarant having breakie

in papa's arms on the way to snorkelling

 

 

am guessing #2 is conceived there... so baby'oliver' will be due in May 13, 2018... it's gonna be a boy.. he's gonna be called Loh Qi-an... 'oly' yet to be confirmed.. God is truly good and amazing.  everything is according to His plan & timing. we just need to submit and trust..tomorrow #2 will be having the 4D scan... pics on the way.. till then, thankiu Jesus.

pre fullmoon thanksgiving party updates

time flies... it's almost 1 month since the arrival of Hope... we'll be celebrating her fullmoon thanksgiving this wkn. she's really a joy to behold.. God's gift to us- created in His image... . May she grow to be a woman after God's heart and truly bring Hope to the hopeless.

Hope Loh Qi-en

am planning to bring her to visit the aunties in Penang in Sept before resuming work in Oct. Hopefully she will be following a schedule thn so it's easier to gauge her actions. Am learning how to cope after the confinement aunty leaves which is 4 days from now (fri). there's gonna be 2 clinic visits and aso a 1 yr birthday party.. and another jeje birthday.

the Arrival of Hope

am pumping milk as I'm writing this.... Baby Hope was born on 17 June 2016 at 2.08am... She decided to enter this world 3weeks early , 1 day before daddy is scheduled to leave for Cambodia business trip. W
Was ready to pack stuff on Wednesday nite when there's water trickling down... Tat was the start of baby Hope's announcement.. Got admitted to the hospital on Thursday wee hours to check. True enuf... The water bag is leaking - bloody show ( mucus plug came out in the process)
So the whole process begins...
Thur (16/6)
- waiting for contractions but non arrived so went for induced at 1419 (2.19pm)
- 4 pm++ dilation at 1.5 cm not a good sign. Not much contractions
- 6pm++ administered  penthadine... 
 [Pethidine -Another form of pain relief is the intramuscular injection (into the muscle of your thigh or buttock) of The injection can also help you to relax, which can lessen the pain.the effects last between two and four hrs]
- around 7pm++ only opened till 2cm. and we need to dilate till 9cm for the baby to come out!!!  it's so gonna be long nite  (-_-')
- the nurses wanted to check on the dilation at around 10.30pm but i was relunctant cos the checking is superbly painful... and then entered the doc..
 - dr elizabeth came in around 11pm++ to check but my dilation is still minimum and bbH heartbeat is quite unstable cos i'm fighting the surges instead of relaxing... i was like.. oh no!! the contractions pain is unbearable to me. really dun like the surges...
- poor hubby was dozing off and he wanted to sleep so much but whnever i'm in pain just wanted him by my side... the reassurance is so strong. dun thk i can go thru this alone... having him around is great.. wonder how those ppl who delivered by themselves in the labor room can manage. really salute them.
- and then amazingly Dr eliz came in slightly pass midnite.. and said she wanted to check on the dilation. i was so worried about the surges... but then she decided to ask me to start pushing.... using bbH strength to help wif the opening of the cervix. smart move!!
- bbH did great... mama is bad.. she vomited thruout the whole process.. and i puked to the nurses and poor mike too. felt so bad..
- am suppose to push like having constipation and hold my breath but the influx is so bad tat i can't hold it down and haf to get it outa me.
- bbH head showed whn i was lying sideways... and whn i was moved to the labor position, can't really recall how many pushes but i manage to get her out in less thn 5.. ^_^.
- she looks like a clay doll!! covered in whitish clay color wif blood.. soooooo cute. manage to get her to suckle on breast.. before mike cut the umblical cord.
- got washed up and stiched up.
- bbH was brought to the room around 4am++ to suckle abit on the breast after the 1st feed...
- manage to breast feed bbH in the morning after her shower.

baby Hope with mama at 4am++

the new papa

super red lips & black hair (mini snow white)

and so the journey begins...... 

pics of baby Hope

cellies visit to Hope on day 1

 

the journey home from hospital