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God is truly amazing... mnJ got their pressie from a big koko today... kitty cat will get her share too. 2 mths no need to buy cat food jor. hehe.. tat's the happy part.
took the challenge to try a new job environment and called former HR to apply for an opening. so it's back to wait for the call.
the not so happy part... well, it's the relationship part which as usual the talking turns to arguing and turns to sadness  followed by disappointments and finally the thought of letting go.

really know that he is a good and wonderful person. just that we can't find a common ground now, that's the part which irritates myself and am feeling so yucky at myself. neway, guess i just need to live each day as it is and wait upon the Lord. May He show His way real soon... am getting scared here.

Thank you Lord Jesus for a wonderful day filled with ups and downs...

before the final quarter of 2012

last quarter 2012

it's passed the last quarter of 2012. there seems to be problems surfacing in my relationship. the happy times are getting less n arguments more. people say that if at the end of the 2 yrs time line and it seems there's no progress in a relationship it normally ends. it's strange where all these theory comes from. guess the "big" news came when he mentioned that he has a calling to go full time & that he's taking baby steps to achieve that. it kinda pull a plug inside me and sounded an alarm bell. i dun wanna go thru this all over again. we are at the pre-marriage counseling stage at lesson 3 when this happen... seriously dun wanna ruin his dreams but i really can't live to it. and it's kinda giving me pressure and stress which i dun thk i need it at this time.

these days our conversation is like goin round and round and round and round.... getting tired and restless that it's goin nowhere. am seriously lost. leaving it all up to God. please take control of the whole situation can? i know there's more issues and problems out there... just tat i felt so useless and frustrated.
will be writing here more to overcome watever i'm goin thru.... that's how i survived with dad gone. whishing he's here still.... i've failed him agian.... sorry daddy..

2nd half of 2012

2nd half of 2012 working day started today.. must be getting old as my momentum has slowed down. went for a job interview today and the negative question was "how come you seemed to be hopping jobs?" well, i seriously dun feel as tho i am but thn it's hard to know so yeah.... it dosen look good on the resume. will see what plans God has for me in this season of life. really need to seek Him on this.

Brighter than my darkest night, Stronger then my toughest fight

mike left for Bangalore today. He's in the plane now. its strange how one misses a person. Mikey still havent gotten over BABY cat i presume, as he's always seeking attention and love.

the look that breaks your heart

half year review 2012

realized the last i wrote was 1 year ago... it's really scary to see how time fly past just like tat. BABY cat passed away after spending 13 years with us. He died of kidney failure. Mikey is still missing him badly. No more kor2 cat to play and bully. Jessey is adapting well... nwy, she dosen really care about BABY cat.

In memory of BABY cat

Grammie is staying in KL after her fall on 30 Dec 2011. She broke the tip of her femur and actually went thru 2 surgeries before she can walk with the help of the walker but thn, grammie being herself, had another fall and now she's back to the wheelchair most of the time.She's attending church in KL and has yet gotten her group of frens. Hope she can settle here.

grammie in Ipoh (June '12)

Mike aka HonWhi is still my bf. been dating for 2 years now i guess. family likes him tat's for sure. planning to go for pre-marriage counselling and the 1st meet up session is at end July. dunno why it's either he's travelling or i am. strange that i get to travel... praying that this relationship will be blessed by God.

taken in Hanoi (feb'12)

Guess that's about the updates for the time being. Will need to update more.... hopefully the next round is before end of the year.