H O M E

just got back... memories of dad were still lingering, the sponge at the shower, his books, the empty space where his bed used to be.. n i really missed listening to his voice of telling me he's been good, sleepin on time n eating his meals. i lost dad's sim card.. feeling upset cos such a simple thing n yet i can lost it. i seriously thk mom is so much stronger thn me.
upset wif work, can't seem to work things out. DADDY's been there for me. i know tat if HE's not, i would have messed things up long time ago.. i can't really walk now. i'm so lost.. n confused.. thank you for holding on to my hand. i really dunno how long i'll be like this. really wanna let go n move on.

everyday, i'm retracting further into my shell, i seriously just wanna get away and be alone. can i? someone once said, dad goin away will be my biggest impact cos thn i'll have to be independant. hahah... life begins again. i'm trying to live life from the start.. n this time i only haf 1 DADDY instead of 2... so yeah.. enuf of tokkok..

~may i live my life according to your will n purpose~